It was also while living in Lewisham that more of these inexplicable awe-inspiring events took  place. I began to see Spirit visions during my sleeping hours. In the first vision, I felt physically restrained by others unknown to me, and was held before a pit or grave. Then I was removed from there to see and feel the simultaneous descending and ascending of myriads of heavenly spirits, from which emanated a Spirit of absolute peace and joy. This was the greatest moment of all happiness.

The next Spirit vision had great clarity and solemnity: It was of being face to face with The Christ. ⁽¹⁶⁾ The appearance of his face was formed by moving rays of light that had no distinguishable source. These soft waves of light, slowly moving and emanating out of the darkness, formed his face. I was awestruck with a fear that enveloped my very being. Even so, and for some moments, I was allowed to examine the details of his face. When I awoke, I felt an overwhelming desire to share this experience with Diane, to wake her and pour it all out. But a sense of futility came over me as I realized I could not explain such a vision, unable to explain the meaning of the awesome face. My thoughts were racing. I thought: My Lord actually came before my face, but didn't speak.  Why?  I thought about it as I lay there in the darkness. I later learned that Holy Spirit imparts understanding silently, as a pure language. ⁽¹⁷⁾

The third Spirit vision was of two enormous white spheres, and of one sphere trying to give birth to the other while at the same time under some powerful constraint not to do so. Not able to bear these dual opposing forces within my spirit, I awoke very disturbed. I sat up, spiritually and mentally exhausted.

The fourth vision occurred shortly after Diane and I moved into a newly built council house in Ashford Kent, and the fifth after we moved to Abbey Wood, London. I had to wait some considerable time for the meaning of these visions to be revealed     of the way God deals with His sons.

It was soon after the last vision, and while still residing at Abbey Wood that I began to study the Bible on a regular basis at home with a man named Selwyn Roach. He was a young man of about twenty-five. Although he was very patient, more than a year had passed before I began to make significant progress. It was as though I had to begin the removal of superfluous things from my spirit before a basic understanding of God's Word would remain with me and allow me to move on to solid spiritual "food" (deeper understandings) belonging to maturity.

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